Dear Santa, it's not too late - part 2 :-)

Well, well well, once I started thinking I actually came up with some Xmas wishes, want to hear?

I'd like a tripod so I can explore some more advanced techniques in photography, prolongued exposures, HDR and the like. Yes, I would love a new camera, bigger, better and stronger, but I'm not sure if I can ask for that much... can I?

And, of course, I would like some stuff to put on myself: a small thing - moonstone earrings, a bit bigger - a denim shirt to replace the old one after over 10 years of service, and very especifically RayBan tortoise Wayfarer sunglasses - a true classic!

Ah, Santa, there's the remaining item from the last year's list - cash for refurbishment, can we talk about it this year? Pretty please? I promise to leave milk and cookies or beer and a burger...

Dear Santa, it's not too late, right?

OK, I confess, I forgot to write you in time for the gifts to get ready or cash earmarked for them, my fault. Problem is, dear Santa, I don't have my wishes as clear as last year, in other words - I don't know what I want. Stupid but true.

I don't even know what I want to do with my life, much less what I want to get in two weeks. Well, surprise me :-)

Anyway, a winning lottery ticket would be nice if you are out of ideas (yes, i'm doing my part by placing bets). Small niceties are always welcome too, you know, the cool stuff, earrings and the like. Yeah, I know, I can buy them myself, as usual, and I probably will... I always do, right?

Oh, and then there's this peace on earth thing...

Cheap philosophy without answers

Questions assault on a rainy day: who am I? what am I doing here? what's the freaking meaning of life and universe? what can I co? what have I lost so far? what can I have? is it too late? why me?

No answer. Not even one.

I'm full of good advice for others and I have no ideas for myself. Should I get off my butt and paint the walls or wait for a brighter future? Is there a brighter future? Is there a future at all?

I see people who don't wait, just take the matters into their own hands and go, do, achieve. People who put together a trip to Patagonia while I keep dreaming about Israel and never go.

Frustration.

A hint of this, a hint of that, nothing to the fullest.

And while I'm at the questions about the universe - is there god and life eternal, or am I just an ant that sometimes feels revolt about this grind of a life, but cannot really do anything to change it?