Who's gonna pick me up from the floor?

Well, I got up on my own and I'm sitting now, but a few hours ago I was on the floor at the bottom of the building entrance stairs. Main parts of my physical being are unhurt (and falling from 5'11" plus 3-4 stairs it's not a bad result) but I landed with my right foot twisted back-inwards and it hurts like hell now. I didn't hear any bad tearing or breaking noises and I was able to limp to the supermarket to buy some bread, so I gather it's not very bad. I used to have foot tendons flexible like a ballerina, quess they are still quite flexible and it saved me.

Still, a swollen ankle is not the worst part, it's the feeling of vulnerability and sudden realization that in a matter of fact I have literally noone to turn to for help except the insurance company. That hurt.

Thankfully I don't live in Thailand or Sri Lanka... A 9.0 earthquake plus tsunami kind of puts my misery into perspective, but doesn't make me feel less miserable in my personal scale.

Dreams again

Another "for the record" dream entry, this time long and detailed, I'm surprised I remembered so much...

1. I'm going to some kind of retreat-holiday camp thing only for women. I see there many known and unknown faces, including that girl I knew back in primary school but long since lost contact with her. It's unbearable to me, noisy, full of busy-bee female beings - arrrr... So I look at her and say "it's your virgin-Artemis kind of heaven, but it's hell to me", basically referring to male population being = 0.

2. I sit on the floor, in a kitchen-like room, I’m cold and wrapped in a blanket, someone says I would get warmer if I joined everyone else (which includes hugging etc.) but I don't want to, I’d rather be cold as long as I don't have to do the female bonding routine.

3. I'm wearing a bath robe and I go to my room, I walk along a balcony-corridor and I know there's a man walking behind me. I let the robe fall off my shoulder and I’m actively enticing him, but I don't know who he is. By the time I reach my door there are two more men, black men, who want to rob me and take the stuff which is by the door (clothes and things hanging around) I fight them and scream, plainclothes police come to my rescue lead by a female inspector, who all of the sudden starts showing off what a great corset she's wearing - not only supporting her spine but also very sexy - the corset is cream-white silk...

4. I get a karate-movie style punishment for not fitting in the team (see not bonding with women), I’m on a beach with some kind of coach (male) who's ordering me to train till I drop, but I don't drop... I keep doing stuff and getting stronger, I’m near the water, waves hit me but cannot knock me down. I train till I can break into a wooden tower of a kind by breaking the boards with my bare fists... and I enter.

5. I'm in a strange town (not so strange as this type of town appears many times in my dreams, divided by a river with hills on one side and something very important I must reach on the other side of the river - normally a big building, castle or something). I go to see my ex-BF, I know I shouldn't but I go anyway. I turn off my mobile phone and ... I meet him, we talk and he's trying to get closer, he's offering me things (shoes, there are dozens of pairs of shoes hanging in a kind of black net on the ceiling), he tries to kiss me and I realize how much I don't want to be there or be with him.

6. I'm out of there, at a table in a café and I want to call my current BF and ask him to come and pick me up, I’m looking for the dratted mobile phone but I cannot find it in my pockets or among things I carry, I start panicking because I’m lost and I want out and I want him to come...

7. I wake up and I’m half hour late, my mobile is in my hand because I managed to switch off the alarm and go back to sleep....