Ten years ago tonight

Ten years ago tonight I met someone who changed my life forever.

For better, for worse, he become one of the most important people in my life and, in a way, I still miss him, although I do not wish to see him again or even talk to him. He was the most intense and twisted personality I ever touched, and since I was at crossroads at the thime his influence was decisive in many, many ways.
I still live in a place that was meant to be our home.

If I'm now a different person - for better and for worse - I owe it to him and the tremendous experience that was trying to be with him. I still think of him more that about anyone in my past, and I'm still afraid he might be back one day.

Love, betrayal, sex beyond all expectations and frontiers, heaven and hell - you gave me everything, thank you... but stay away.